The Woes of Writing

Writing anything is hard enough, but trying to put thoughts into a story the way I see them in my head is difficult.

I typically start with a story and then build the beginning off of that, but then I tend to start new stories because the ideas I have won’t fit into the current story I have going.

I guess that’s not only the woes of writing, but the woes of having a mental illness as a writer.

My anxiety gets the better of me a lot of the time. I have so many ideas, but I struggle with trying to get them down on paper in a fashion that doesn’t seem confusing and jumbled together. I don’t want to write too much fluff, too much nonsense to pad my story, I don’t feel that works for me, but I also don’t want to leave out important details.

I think for now, I’ll just write rough drafts, kind of like an outline and build from there. The problem is that I come up with new things as I go and I find it hard to stick with a solid pre-determined idea.

My anxiety causes my brain to run wild with thoughts and somehow those thoughts get stuck on the hamster wheel of life, they get all jumbled and mixed up and then I can’t seem to make sense of them for a story.

I am hoping to get new medication that will help me sleep eventually, I know this would help my issues a lot.

I can’t even focus lately and I want to write so badly, but I keep getting stuck.